Four months deep in nursing school, but it feels like a whole year. I just can’t wait to be done. I just can’t wait.
Just thought I’d let you guys know
my brother’s girlfriend, tina bantug, is the fucking coolest person I know! She’s so awesome!
my friends and i were talking about how our lives are and what revolves around it. one of my older gfs said her life was free of baggage. she said ” im 30, not married, no kids with no baggage at all.. it should be so easy for me to get what i want”
maybe baggage isnt always such a bad thing.. maybe baggage can help frame who a person is.
i guess its safe to say i dont have much baggage but i guess there are a few things about my crazy family that burdens me every once in a while. but over the years ive learned that i was only givin one family and instead of thinking about what kind of fam we could be… i should just look at what i have and embrace it while i still have it. look for the better in everything.
“Youre in a challenging situation.” those where the words my advisor left me with when i decided to gather up the courage to speak with her today. it seems as though there is a “challenging situation” in every department of my life. getting up out of bed is a challenge. looking in the mirror is a challenge. talking to the most important people is a challenge. i cant wait for things to shift in life. last night i revealed some apprehensive feelings to one of my important friends. i talked to him about school and that if the day ever came that i graduated from college, i wouldnt walk. i told him i wouldnt walk because i felt like since it took me so long to graduate, there would not be a point to walk on the stage to recieve the diploma. he opened my eyes about how it doesnt matter how long it takes to accomplish something as long as you achieve your goals. so maybe i will walk. who knows?
in the end, the most important applause i will ever receive is my own.
